Own Kind

Own Kind

In the void of flower and torns,
Im thankful you are neither those.
Nor rose or morning glory,
You are one of your own kind,
My own flower that bloom before the spiring,
Yet, never wilted in the winter.

In the void of thunderstorm and sunny,
Im thankful you are neither those.
Nor harm those that surround or giving full power for people to take granted for,
You are one of your own kind,
My own weather that wouldnt change even at night,
Yet, remain the same everyday and after.

In the void of emotions and feelings,
Im thankful you are neither those,
Nor there rage to long to hold or the cheer that just presumed the others,
You are one of your own kind,
My innerself that I always improved,
Yet, you cheerish this imperfect me the most.

My My MAN

My My Man

When I said I love you

He just nod or reply with "em"

My my man with not many words of love

Still, in his action I found love

There I knew I in his heart. 

When I said take care ,

He replied "em" and asked me to take care of myself.

My my man that seem like he doesnt care,

Still, in his action I found them,

There I knew he is my number one fan. 

When I mess my life,

Never ever did he lay his hand,

On my cheek or on my hand,

Never ever did he beat me out of my crap,

My my man with not many words of advice,

Still, in his action I found myself,

There I knew I am his life.

Seldomly I heard his prayer,

Wander if I ever in one of his list,

My my man with the faith of mustard seed,

He committed it in silent,

Still, in his action I found my strength,

There I knew I am his prayer item. 

He might not the perfect man,

But he is my perfect king.

In his imperfection, 

In his silent,

In his action,

I found three those things,

Hope, Faith, and Love. 

And most importantly he teaches me love.

One that will stay against all odd. 

My my man, my father, my Pa. 

"Action speaks louder than words". 

He is that kind of my my man.

Happy Father's Day Apa.

You always be my my man. 

June 16, 2151 (Sunday)

self reflection of ep 13-14 Dear My Friends

Just finished watch episode 13 and 14 of Dear My Friends.

I hope there are better way for me to describe this feelings. The feeling I have now, the deep sadness of selfish. 

'All of the child in this world, dont deserve shed a tears' Dear my Friends. 

I always think to die early than my mom,so that I will not facing the sadness of losing her. Even thought I always have different views with my mom,quarrel with her, keep argue and says harsh words. I really love my mom. She the best God ever give me. I love her. But after heard that phrase scripted for Park Wan, I feel a slap just across my face. A hit! 

I realize how selfish I am. How I could I being a daughter that always angry with her mom, then when her mom has problem,sick or anything, that daughter cry over her mom? How could she ever deserve to cry for her own mom? How could I ever says that I want to let my mom feel the sadness of losing a daughter? How could I be so selfish? 

That's must be great of me for being a selfish. And I think it was true that, a child does not deserve shed tears over her/his parents (mom&dad). How bad you are when they around, and when they gone, how could a child be so selfish and using tears to show how pathetic and empathetic they are towards their parents. That hypocrite. 

Even if you hope for something to changes, nothing will. Because time is mean to consume. After you consume something,if never be the same, either you vomit it out, it never be the same. Because time is mean to consume.

  

Kelvin Oh: Baby Blue ost Dear My Friends

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A novel review 1

We try to figure out why.
A force that lead to a result, a reason to make it better, to give it a break so that everything will come to sense, a sense where mind and heart knot in one bullet point, of yes, 'that's why'. For most people, they like to linger around to a destination that even further from before. That perhaps brings them to open the reason that not apply to others. Because somehow, the reason is there, it near, and it haven't move yet to other place. It here. And this happen to Cody a character in a novel 'I was Here' by Gayle Forman.

Who Cody? A best friend for Meg, a sister that come out from different mom and dad, a person that she start close with since they are young. They are best friend for life in this smallest town. They share all their secret, problem, crush, and more of those thing they go through, either when they are close enough or far beyond Seattle. That what's Cody thought. She thought she knows Meg more than Meg know herself. Meg a girl that discover others people habit, detail of  times their sneeze, solve others people problems, a mother-like to Scottie, her little brother, except when it come to herself, she lost. No only that she lost, she missed some people that was there. She lost and forever she will never be found because she not lost here, she lost there. In a hotel room, with a poison on her hand, she lost her life. She will never come back.

For that, Cody knows something is wrong, Meg will tell her, discuss with her. Meg will. Cody believes Meg is not suicide, she been killed. For few linger around Seattle, meet Alice and Harry, Cody finds out thousand things that perhaps Meg forget to tell her, of went to club, and lost her virginity to Ben in one night stand, come across suicide support group in a web, and have chat with All_BS, who might be the reason why Meg make this decision. Cody confronts Ben and All_BS, and with all the brave in her, she knows she win. Meg is not suicide, she been killed. She meet with Meg parents, Joe and Sue.
Still the truth is not that.

They tells Cody that they know about the suicide support group, because the police tell them that Meg join that online group that encourage one who cannot bears with life to end their life for best. And they then tell Cody that Meg has Critical Depression that she has it from Sue. Cody breaks, she ask why Meg and why they never tell her about Meg condition. Joe and Sue tell her that because Meg don't want Cody to know about her condition. Cody breaks in crying and ended up knowing the real reason she give all to find the reason, because if someone kill Meg, that will be a better excuse than that Meg kill herself.

In a intertwined of this novel, Cody and Ben make out and finally they continue their relationship. For Meg, her ashes are been thrown in the wind of that small town and her favourite song been played. There are no body in her tomb, they only a words of,
     ' Meghan Garcia
      I was Here '.
That's only for the synopsis. To know more, I encourage your guys to buy and pay for this novel. It a worth of time and money.

Honestly, when I'm say it great, it is. Because I'm not your kind of novel reader. I only read the rare found, the great novel.